I am a Shopaholic.

I like to shop. There's no secret, I'm a shopaholic. I always "need" something. I hate it. I love it...while it lasts. I get excited about trying on clothes and filling up my basket and then I get to the checkout and realize what I've done. The crazy thing is that I'm not what I would call a big spender. I rarely purchase anything full price and I'm in love with the Goodwill store. Most of my purchases are second hand and I donate a lot of things. However, a trip to the Goodwill store EVERY weekend adds up by the time you consider the gas there, the lunch we eat, the clothes I don't need, and the gas home. I'm addicted and I'm terrible.

 I think the main reason I like to shop is that it's a place to go. I don't have many places to go and idle hands are the devil's playground, right? I get bored. I go shopping. I have several things I could be doing at home: playing guitar, watching a show, reading a book, cleaning...blugh, working in the yard, sewing. I have too many things to keep me busy, however, shopping seems to be the most fun. I have to change this! I could be this amazing, creative person if I would just stay home. I could be the true earth child I've always wanted to be!

I planned all of our future bill payoffs tonight (another addiction), and I though I already knew that I could easily be debt free in 5 years, I hadn't realized that I could be rid of 3 of my bills by this time next year. That's amazing! It motivates me to do better. That shopaholic feeling will not go away easily and probably not even soon, but hopefully with time and progress, I will take control. Transformation begun.